I'm walking these 18 miles for my comrade's all past, present and future. Whom might consider entertaining that suicide demon. For my mother a Veteran. When my sister (a Veteran as well) died of an long term illness. My mother could not take her death and gave up on life. My sister died July 2008 then my Mother Sept 2008 exactly 2 months later to the day.
Myself upon returning from desert storm. Confused with PTSD and unknown illnesses. Trying to cope as well raising two small babies 3 and 5. I found the road was closed and I could not pass no matter how much I reached out. I too crossed the threshold and attempted suicide active duty. I'm here today because I had a good AF doctor that trust me to know me. He got word when my brother called him to inform him he was on his way to pick up my kids. Doctor told brother to stay put and next thing MP's and 1st Sgt were at my door putting me in handcuffs. Taking me into the hospital for days. When they came to get me they noticed I had given all my furniture away. My doctor said that was the point of no return. I continued to attempt to take my life. It's hard with memories of death and destruction, sick with unknown illnesses, 2 small babies and Army. I got a wake up call when a doctor said my OD level should have killed me. But went on to say I was lucky not to be in a coma. I knew there is one person stronger than I. God was not playing with me. I'm afraid of pissing God off and he then just leaving me bed ridden. I'll wait till he calls me home.
I am sick with Gulf War Unknown and the medication I take is unheard of. I know I am risking my health and life doing this walk. But I have to do it. I have no but to speak for them. We don't leave comrade's behind. I have what it takes to bring awareness to US Armed forces. That their is outside suicide prevention help as well. Military and VA are overloaded and need a back up help. I know this can reduce the rate of suicide's.
The walk is going to be very hard emotional. Remembering my incidents, my mothers and some fallen comrade's. One was when I was station in Fort Richardson. A E-7 had taken his family hostage with C4 in housing. The ending is that Soldiers released his family and shot and killed himself. He was a Desert Storm Veteran time frame 1994. My doctor had them come and get me when this was happening. Then he asked if I knew what was going on. I told him no I thought it was a training for MP's. He then informed me the Sgt being Desert Storm and killing himself. Then he ask how I felt. I told him I was pissed because he accomplished it and I can't. Doctor got mad but I told him if he wanted the truth or a lie. I was admitted for a couple of days. Nobody should ever have a heavy heart like mine thinking death is the only answer. Especially those who risk their lives for this country.
I would apperciate any help you can give to spreading the word. Although donations is for US Armed Forces. It also gives me the strength to walk it even more. I'm walking alone as I don't think this is for a spot light that I am doing good. This is something to save lives and heal some past hurt. This is the 20th year mark of Operation Desert Storms. God it's going to be hard and I anticipate crying the full 18 miles. Prayers are welcome
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Mary Jane Lipsett
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